As the countdown approaches to new mum hood (2 days to be exact) I’ve been reflecting on how symbolic the change of seasons are to this chapter change, especially with Spring always symbolising new chapters, and renewal. It never ceases to amaze me the path life takes you down some times, I can honestly say I didn’t think my story involved being almost 43, barefoot (not by choice – think cankles and swollen hooves rivalling a small thai elephant) and pregnant, oh and let’s not forget a 30kg weight gain, tipping the scales at 103kg!
Whilst it’s been a incredible gift that we are both deeply grateful for, I’d be lying if I didn’t acknowledge it’s been a wild, beautiful and sometimes very emotional ride. It’s challenged my view of my purpose and self, and letting go by giving permission to be a new mum and fully embrace this new blessed role. In the past, pre pregnancy days, I would sometimes take a mild interest in friends pregnancies and kids, but not in too much depth never having thought I would go down that path and not really understanding that reality. Exact same thought I had when I was back in NZ 2 summers ago and met this guy (on the left, ‘Mr T’) who ended up being my fiance some 5 months later after our fateful meeting and me spilling my drink down him after tripping on the bar mat and kissing his ear – class act I am. But here I am, 17 months to the day later, about to have a baby, engaged and I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. It was the same story for Escape Haven and leaving the corporate world well behind to toss it all in to follow this Bali dream for the past 8 years. Sometimes things don’t necessarily make sense at the time nor are in the perfectly curated life plan, yet you know you are following your heart, and that’s all that matters.
I guess the point is, you never know what life has in store for you, what’s around the corner. All the future planning, certainty and belief in a certain path can be challenged in an instant and it can all change to something bigger and more wonderful than you could have imagined. It’s true, we never really know what lies ahead for us but if we are open to it, we recognise things that are too good to pass and things we never knew we needed. And although these changes in chapters may challenge us, they can also steer us into beautiful unchartered waters where we discover things we never knew existed within us.
I’ll be honest, I’m scared but I can’t wait for this new chapter and trying on a new label, one I never thought I’d wear, ‘mum’ and ‘wife’! Perhaps life does begin at 4(2)!!
Jen, Founder, Escape Haven xx